Hopefully the thought that we are out of jeopardy isn’t phony, a fantasy from our purposefully deluded minds.

-Isaac

Weak. Inferior. Helpless. Useless.

These are characteristics that should never be associated with an Alpha, yet I feel them all on a daily basis now.

I have a job to do and the need to be a stable and reliable leader is essential after what has just happened. Countless new procedures need to be implemented for the safety of the packs. Each Alpha will need to take precautionary measures -ramping up training, security, and make plans with alias incase war comes.

There isn’t time to stay on a sick bed with people keeping me from my work while all these pressing matters wait to be handled. Not to mention my duties as a mate and the fact she has her own position among the packs to undertake.

Each day doesn’t hold enough hours to get my tasks completed even if I was healthy and able bodied, the challenges are even more daunting as I regain strength from the poison my brother