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CHAPTER 171
A Moment of DoubtI exhale sharply, my breath fogging up the window as I stare into the night. The city sprawls below, lights flickering like dying stars against the darkness. From up here, it looks peaceful, almost serene. But I know better. Beneath that manufactured glow is a world rotting at its core, ruled by shadows and whispers.I should feel victorious. I’ve done everything The Oath asked of me—every mission, every sacrifice, every bloodstained decision. I played my part, followed every order without question. And yet, standing here now, there’s an emptiness pressing against my ribs, heavy and suffocating.My fingers tighten against the cool glass, knuckles whitening.Why doesn’t it feel like enough?A soft knock behind me. I don’t turn. I already know it’s her.“You’re brooding again,” Evelyn murmurs, her voice smooth, but laced with something else. Concern, maybe.I let out a low chuckle, hollow and humorless. “Is that what we call it now?”Her reflection joins mine in the gl
CHAPTER 172
The Mirror of the PastThey stand in perfect rows, backs straight, shoulders squared, eyes filled with something that used to burn in me once—purpose. Or at least, the illusion of it.I watch them from the shadows, unseen but seeing everything. They remind me of ghosts. Not of the dead, but of who I used to be. Young. Eager. Unaware.Just like I was.Dante stands at the front, barking orders in his usual clipped tone. His presence alone commands attention, respect—or fear. Some of these recruits already worship him, hanging onto every word, believing this is the start of something bigger than themselves.It’s the same belief they drilled into me when I first arrived. That we were soldiers for something greater. That we weren’t just mercenaries, but guardians of order.A lie wrapped in just enough truth to make it feel real.My fingers tighten into fists at my sides.Dante knows I’m here. He hasn’t looked my way, but I see it in the stiffness of his shoulders, in the way his voice hold
CHAPTER 173
A Job Too FamiliarThe briefing is the same. The setup is the same. The orders are the same.And so is the lie.I sit in a dimly lit room, the stale scent of cigarette smoke lingering in the air. The projector hums, flashing grainy surveillance images onto the wall. A man in his mid-forties, expensive suit, with tired eyes. A name I won’t remember. Because I’ve done this before. Again. And again. And again.Dante’s voice is smooth and rehearsed. "The target is a liability. We need him removed quietly."I lean back in my chair, arms crossed. The leather creaks beneath me. I don’t ask why. I already know the answer. The Oath never eliminates threats—it eliminates inconveniences.I should walk away. I should say no.Instead, I say nothing.Evelyn glances at me from across the table. She knows. Knows I don’t believe in this anymore. Knows I’m running out of reasons to pretend I do. But she also knows I don’t have a choice. Not yet.Dante taps the file in front of him. “Nathan. This one’s
CHAPTER 174
The Ghost of JulianJulian’s voice follows me, no matter how fast I run."You can never escape what you are."I hear it in the silence. In the gunfire. In the spaces between my own heartbeat. It’s there when I blink. When I breathe. When I close my eyes and try to pretend—just for a second—that I’m someone else.But I know the truth.There is no escape.Not from this life.Not from him.Not from the shadow he left behind.Even now, as I press my back against a cold brick wall, blood drying on my knuckles, I can still hear him.The target—no, Zicky —leans against the dumpster across from me, chest heaving. His suit is torn, his face pale beneath the streetlamp’s glow. He’s not used to this. The running. The bleeding. The knowing that you’re alive only because someone else missed their shot.I should leave him. It would be easier.But I don’t.Because if I do, I’m proving Julian right.And I can’t let that happen.Zicky exhales sharply. "This is insane.""Welcome to my world." I glance
CHAPTER 175
The Price of PowerPower isn’t freedom.That’s the lie they sell you in the beginning.They tell you that if you climb high enough if you prove yourself ruthless enough, you’ll never have to take orders again. No one will touch you. No one will question you. You’ll stand above it all, untouchable.But I know better now.The more power The Oath gives me, the heavier it becomes.It drags behind me like a chain, growing thicker with everybody I drop, every deal I make, every mission I don’t walk away from.I used to think I could claw my way out of this life. That if I fought hard enough, I could carve my own path.But power isn’t an escape. It’s a cage with gilded bars.And I just locked myself inside it.---The air is thick with cigarette smoke and whiskey when I step into the meeting room. The Oath’s higher-ups sit around the long table, their faces half-lit by the dim chandeliers overhead. They watch me like wolves circling fresh meat.I don’t blink.I don’t flinch.I know what they
CHAPTER 176
The Cost of ObedienceControl is an illusion.They let you think you have it. They let you feel powerful. Important. But it’s a trick. A rope you climb, only to find out too late that it’s wrapped around your neck.I should have seen it coming.I thought I was moving up. I thought I was calling the shots. But I wasn’t.I was just another piece on the board, waiting to be sacrificed.And now, the hand that moves me has made its next move.---The job is different this time.Not a target. Not a cleanup.It’s a message.Dante sits across from me, his cigarette burning low between his fingers. The smoke curls lazily through the air as he watches me, amusement flickering in his dark eyes."You’re sending a message," I say, voice flat."That’s right."I glance down at the folder in front of me. It’s already open, the details spelled out in crisp, professional words. A warning disguised as an assignment.I already know what it means.A family. A woman. A kid.Not the targets. Just collateral
CHAPTER 177
An Unexpected EncounterThe city moves like it always does—fast, relentless, indifferent. People pass by, faces blurred by motion, voices merging into one endless hum of traffic and life. I’ve always liked it that way. The anonymity. The way no one stops to look too closely.Until someone does.I feel it before I see it. The weight of a stare, the pull of recognition. A presence that shouldn’t be there yet is.I turn, scanning the crowded sidewalk.And then I see him.For a second, I don’t believe it.Too many years have passed. Too much has changed. But the eyes are the same—sharp, piercing, too damn familiar.Jesse Monroe.A name I haven’t spoken in years. A ghost I thought I’d buried.His expression shifts the moment our eyes meet—shock, then disbelief, then something else. Something raw."Nathan?" His voice cuts through the noise like a blade.I don’t move.I should walk away. I should disappear into the city like I always do.But my feet don’t listen.Jesse takes a step closer li
CHAPTER 178
The Illusion of ChoiceI run.Not in the literal sense—no, that would be too easy. I’ve run in ways that don’t leave footprints, ways that can’t be traced on a map. I’ve played the game, followed the rules, and then, when I thought I had them figured out, I tried to rewrite them.But the rules don’t change.And neither does the outcome.I sit in my car, gripping the steering wheel so tightly my knuckles turn white. The city sprawls in front of me, endless roads stretching in every direction. But no matter where I go, I know exactly where I’ll end up.Back where I started.A cruel joke. A never-ending cycle.A damn trap.My phone buzzes, and I don’t need to check the screen to know who it is.The Oath doesn’t like when its men start thinking for themselves.I let it ring. The silence that follows is worse.Because I know what’s coming next.A reminder. A correction. A leash snapping back into place.I force a breath through my teeth and start the engine. I don’t have a plan. Not really
CHAPTER 179
: A WarningThe message comes at midnight.No name. No sender. Just five words.Don’t think we haven’t noticed.My fingers tighten around the phone, the cold glow of the screen cutting through the darkness of my apartment. Outside, the city hums—sirens in the distance, the occasional honk, the restless energy of a place that never sleeps.I don’t move.A warning.Not a threat—yet—but close enough.The Oath doesn’t tolerate hesitation. Doubt. Second thoughts. And I’ve been showing all three, whether I meant to or not.I lock my phone and toss it onto the counter. My gun sits next to it, gleaming under the dim kitchen light. A silent reminder that I’ve made my choices. That every hesitation, every misstep, is another crack in the foundation I built to survive.I should respond. Should say something to reassure them.Instead, I grab a drink.The whiskey burns as it goes down, but it doesn’t dull the weight pressing against my ribs.They’re watching.Of course, they are.I take another si
CHAPTER 180
The Cycle ContinuesI used to believe there was an end to this.That one day, I’d pull the right string, make the right move, and everything would unravel. That I could walk away, slip into some shadow where they couldn’t reach me.I know better now.The Oath doesn’t end. It doesn’t break. It just shifts—changes hands, changes names. One king falls, another rises. One soldier dies, and another takes his place.And me?I keep playing the same role.I stand in the cold alley, my breath curling into the air like smoke. The city stretches around me—familiar streets, familiar lights, the illusion of normalcy. I could almost pretend I was just another man walking home, another piece of the background noise.But the weight of the gun in my coat says otherwise.The job went clean. No mistakes. No witnesses. A body cooling on the marble floor of a penthouse uptown, the blood already soaking into a rug that probably cost more than my entire childhood. The message was sent. And yet, I still feel