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MISCARRIAGE (3)

GRIFFEN

If only she had listened to me....if only she had left when I told her to leave....why does Zara have to be so stubborn?!

Just then, the operating theater door was pushed open and a doctor came rushing out.

I rushed to the doctor. "Doctor, how are they? How is my wife and my child doing? Are the both of them going to survive? You have to save the both of them!" I yelled at the doctor. I felt like that baby was the only thing connecting me to Zara now. If she still has the baby, she won't leave for it's sake. But if the baby is gone, knowing the kind of woman Zara is, the only thing that's left for the both of us is seperation. I just can't stand the thought of that. I can't be seperated from Zara.

The doctor looked at me with sympathy in his eyes and shook his head. "I'm really sorry sir but we've tried our best. The mother has lost a lot of blood. We can only choose to save one of them now. Either the mother or the child. Who do you want to save?" The doctor asked me.

I felt like I had received a death sentence when I heard this. They can only save one of them....why?! Why does my life have to be so complicated?!.

Why can't I get the best of both worlds?!

I grabbed the doctor's collar. "What nonsense are you saying to me? Didn't I tell you that you need to save the child and the mother no matter what?! What choose! I don't want to choose I want the both of them!" I yelled again. Zara will definitely leave me without the child....I need to keep that child by all means.

And if Zara is gone.... what am I going to do with a fetus if I don't even have Zara?! This can't be happening to me.

"Sir ..sir....you really need to calm down and make a decision or else we're going to lose the both of them. We've really tried our best but the mother has lost a lot of blood before she came here. Her pregnancy was already unstable to begin with. You need to choose between saving the mother and the child. But if you choose to save the child, there's no guarantee that the child will survive in the next few months without the mother" the doctor told me..

BAM!!!

It was as if I was hit with a stick. All of the emotions I had been trying to hold back came crashing down on me. I almost fell down but the Doctor helped me up.

It wasn't like I didn't know the decision I have to make in a situation like this. I already knew. But I wasn't willing to face it. Or rather I wasn't willing to face the fact that my wife could leave me because of this.

But ...I don't want to see Zara die. I really don't want to see Zara die at all. It was taking all the self control that I had as a man not to break down crying.

The doctor saw that I was having a hard time making a decision and he decided to advise me.

"Sir, I've given you my professional advise as a doctor. I'm a husband and a father too, and if you asked for my opinion, I'd tell you to save your wife. Alright it's your first child....your wife is more important. She doesn't have any former sicknesses and the both of you will be able to have children in the future. I can see that you love your wife...why don't you save her first?" The doctor tried to persuade me.

Love....of course I loved Zara. I loved her a lot when the both of us first got married. But after what she did, after everything that has happened between us, I wasn't so sure of those feelings of "love" anymore. All that I know is that I don't want my wife to leave me.

I don't want her to die ..and I don't want her to be seperated from me. How can I get both?

"Sir, from both a professional and personal standpoint, it's only right that you save the mother" the Doctor continued to persuade me.

I snapped just then. "Do you really think that I don't know that! Do you think that I want to watch my wife die?! What are you still doing here? Go ahead and save her! Don't let anything happen to my wife! She needs to be alive!" I yelled at the man .

No matter what, Zara being alive is the most important. She needs to stay alive! I'll do everything and anything that I can yo make sure that she doesn't leave me. It doesn't matter if I have to guilt trip her. Anyway, she can't leave me!

The doctor seemed to have pitied me so he didn't get angry when I snapped at him .

"I got it sit. We will save your wife. Don't be too sad. The both of you are still young. You'll both be able to have a child soon" the doctor comforted me before slipping into the operating theater again.

I finally could not bear it anymore. I went to sit on one of the waiting chairs.

Zara, Zara, Zara...did she really have to be so stubborn?! Did she really have to get into a fight with me?!

She fucking knew that she was pregnant and yet she didn't even care about her child! She still decided to get into a fight with Lizzy!

And that Lizzy, I'll never let her go! I'll make sure that I torture her and make her pay for everything that she has done!

I should have known that she is doing it on purpose! No matter what Zara has done, I should have known that getting back at Zara by sleeping with her best friend was a dirty idea!

Speak of the devil and she appears. Just then, I saw Lizzy walking towards me. It seems that she found me.

She still had a smug smile on her face. Clearly she was enjoying the situation. I really hated this woman! I hated her to the bones right now!

Lizzy soon stood in front of me. "What? Did the doctors tell you that they were unable to save the child? You don't have to be so sad. Zara is unable to give birth to a child. I'll be able to give birth to a child for you. We've been doing it with a condom all this while that's why I haven't been able to get pregnant. I'll be able to give you a child really soon. Just forget about the condoms when we do it again okay?" Lizzy said with a big smile plastered on her annoying face.

I pushed her away angrily. "Stay away from me! You are a disgusting woman! I don't want to have anything to do with you!" I snapped at Lizzy.

"Disgusting?. You didn't say those words when you were sleeping with me. You even said that you were going to get married to me. Have you forgotten all about that?"