81When has been breaking your own rules been a good idea? Never that’s when. So why have I gone and done that now? This is like every other serial killer that has ever thought they were smarter than the police. I’m ringing them about a murder I committed. What did I think I was doing. Answering questions like I was innocent. What a fucking dumb cunt I am.After the police had finished with me I went to work. My plan was to convince them I was innocent and in shock. In all honesty, I have no idea if I succeeded but they sent me home. When I left some of my colleagues gave me a distrustful look. I believe they suspect me. Even though I had explained everything to them.It was clear that Wayne had made a big impact on them with his ranting about me. Shit is starting to come down around my ears. I sat in my car with my heart pounding. In my mirrors, I could see people standing watching me. It took a few moments to calm myself down enough to be able to d

83“My secret is that I have hurt people. Not just one or two, but many. Not just the ones you know about.”“Wait a minute, you have hurt people?”“Yes. Some of them were bad people. Others I can’t say what they were like. I didn’t know them.”There were no feelings inside me. I was numb. If I was to get hit right now, I wouldn’t feel a thing. Louise was clearly not fully aware of what I was saying, and I didn’t want to elaborate further if that was possible. Louise held her glass out for me to take and fill.As I poured the golden liquid into the glass, I noticed my handshaking. Placing the glass down and clenching my fist a few times, trying to calm the shakes. She spoke.“Bull shit.”“What?”“You heard me. Is it really easier to feed me this story? This story that you have hurt people.”“It&rsqu

85It was over a week since the incident in the car park. I had no visits from the police and I hadn’t had the guts to give Lou the necklace.My house was starting to look like a family home. I did and didn’t like it. It was nice to know I had someone around. On the other hand my house was a dump. Toys left here there and everywhere. Women’s underwear was appearing all over in unexpected places. This was starting to make me miss my old life. The single life has a lot going for it.Lou had taken to reading my books. I guessed she was trying to compare me to others. She was reading one about Donald Gaskin. He was convicted and sentenced to death for the murder of thirteen people but the book estimated that he killed over one hundred and ten. He was described as hard-working and helpful. People thought his choice of vehicle was odd. He chose to drive around in a hearse.“Harry. I don’t see many similarity’s between you and

87Time to say enough is enough. I’m hanging up my leather murdering gloves and taking a break. Lou and Adam need me. If I get locked up, then who will look after them and keep them safe. There will be some changes and they will be big time.This is it. Today is the day I’m nice. Lou is getting the necklace for no reason. Being liked is important and I think I can make that happen. This morning I woke up before Lou and made her some breakfast. I took it up to her on a tray and put the necklace on the tray. Before going into her room, I gave the door a knock.Lou’s tired, groggy voice came to me.“You don’t have to knock knob head. Vet in here.”Mornings are most definitely not the best way to see or smell Lou. Her long dark hair was all over the place, some stuck to the side of her face with spit. When I put the tray down on her bedside table, the smell of her breath hit me. It stunk like r

89 It appears that Lou was not as ready for the experience of seeing a corpse as she thought. She lost the contents of her stomach twice on the way to the barn.When I got closer to the barn my stomach started to do flips as well. Not that the body was a problem for me but a sold sign had been put up.“Lou. This is bad.”“What is?”“Look.”I pointed out the sign.“There was no sign of any kind last time I was here now there is a sold sign. The chances are a developer is going to be working on this place very soon.”“But said you left no evidence.”“Yes but mistakes can be made. I’m not perfect and this was my first kill. Also nobody thinks they have left any evidence. That is a sure-fire way of getting caught. Being overconfident inn your ability’s.”“So what are we going to do?”Now that was an int