I'm mad.No mad doesn't even begin to cover it. I had dragged Noah and ran back to our base in the exam . Luckily the others were there visibly shaken except Yelena. Surprising.My hands won't stop shaking, and I don't know if it's anger or the leftover vibration from the explosion. My pulse is hammering in my ears like a war drum, and every time I blink, I see her face again.Her eyes wide.Her mouth open, begging for air.Why am I so fucking angry?She wasn't even my real mother . My real mother is dead I know. I haven't even been in this world up to a month. So why do I care about a woman I never met. It doesn't make any sense.She wasn't supposed to die like that. No one is.Rhazar didn't just kill her he enjoyed it. Every second. Every scream. Like it was an orchestra and her pain was the music.My chest feels tight. Too tight. I want to break something. Punch a wall. Punch him. Punch myself for even feeling this shit.Because emotions are useless. They don't stop monsters. They