All Chapters of FIVE WASTED YEARS: Chapter 1
- Chapter 10
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CHAPTER 1: THE WIFE WHO NEVER CHOSE HIM
Five years. That was how long Arga Pratama had been married to Nadira Maheswari, and for every one of those years he had tried to be the kind of husband a woman would be glad to come home to.It had not always been easy. He was a firefighter in Jakarta, which meant nights that ended at dawn, a uniform that never fully lost the smell of smoke, and a salary that stretched only so far before the end of every month. Nadira had never said outright that it wasn't enough. She didn't have to. He heard it in the way she sighed over grocery receipts, in the way she scrolled past photos of friends' holidays in Bali and Singapore and then set her phone face down on the table, as though the screen had insulted her.Still, Arga believed in patience. He believed that loyalty, if you kept giving it, eventually became a kind of foundation, something a marriage could stand on even when the rest of the ground felt uncertain. He believed that right up until the night it all gave way beneath him.The call
CHAPTER 2: AN INVITATION FROM A STRANGER
Arga didn't sleep.He lay on his side of the bed—he still thought of it as his side, though the whole mattress was his now—and stared at the ceiling fan turning in slow, useless circles. Every time he closed his eyes, he saw the photograph. Not the candles, not Rendra's hand beneath hers. The date.Three months ago, Nadira had told him she was going to a work training in Bandung. Three days, she'd said. The company was paying for the hotel. He had driven her to Gambir station himself, carried her bag to the platform, and told her to text him when she arrived. She had. *Sudah sampai, Mas. Dingin di sini.* I'm here. It's cold.But in the photograph she was not in Bandung. She was in Jakarta, twenty minutes from their front door, wearing the green dress he had bought her for their anniversary.At seven in the morning, he called the station and asked for a few hours off. His commander didn't press him for reasons. In nine years of service, Arga had never asked for anything before, and the
CHAPTER 3: THE FORGED SIGNATURE
Dimas Santoso's office was a cramped room above a photocopy shop in Rawamangun, its walls lined with binders and a framed law degree that had faded slightly in the afternoon sun. Arga had known him since high school. A few years ago, when an accident on duty had sent Arga and two colleagues to the hospital and the insurance company had tried to wriggle out of paying, it was Dimas who had fought for them—and won.Now Dimas sat with his reading glasses pushed low on his nose, turning page after page of the copies Maya had given Arga. He didn't speak for a long time. Occasionally he made a small sound in the back of his throat, or tapped a line with the end of his pen."Well?" Arga said finally.Dimas took off his glasses and rubbed the bridge of his nose. "Some of these could become serious legal problems," he said. "If it's proven your signature was used without your consent, that's not a small thing, Ga." He squared the pages into a neat stack. "Here's what you do. Keep any originals
CHAPTER 4: THE SECRET BEHIND ALIF'S NAME
Arga didn't confront Nadira right away.Years of entering burning buildings had taught him that charging blindly toward smoke was how men died. You assessed first. You found the source. So instead of calling his wife, he called the social institution named in the press materials from Rendra's conference and asked—politely, patiently—how an adoption was supposed to work.The woman who answered had a kind voice and the slightly weary tone of someone who explained the same rules many times a day. Adoption, she told him, required assessments, home visits, approvals, and a legal process under the applicable regulations. It could take a long time. "Being close to a child doesn't automatically make someone the legal parent, Pak," she said. "No matter how much affection there is. The procedures exist to protect the child."He thanked her and hung up, more confused than before.If Nadira had only recently begun planning to adopt Alif, why had the boy's name been written into company documents
CHAPTER 5: THE WOMAN WHO VANISHED
Siska sat on the edge of the sofa with both hands wrapped around a glass of warm tea she hadn't touched. Her fingers were shaking so badly that the tea trembled at the rim.Arga sat across from her and waited. He had seen this kind of shaking before—in people pulled from smoke, in mothers waiting outside hospital doors. It wasn't cold. It was fear, finally allowed to surface."Alif used to live at a shelter," she began. "A rumah singgah in North Jakarta. Then he was transferred to a facility run by Pak Rendra's foundation." She looked down at the tea. "Bu Nadira did come to visit him. Several times. But her visits were never recorded as part of a formal adoption. Not like the news is saying.""Then what were they recorded as?""Sponsor visits." She shook her head. "Nothing that gave her any legal standing."She told him the rest haltingly, as though each fact had to be pried loose. Two years earlier, the foundation had received a report about a little boy who had lost his family. Acco
CHAPTER 6: TRUTHS FROM THE PAST
Pak Hendra had long since moved to a desk job at headquarters, but he still answered his phone on the second ring, the way he always had when he was Arga's commander."Arga. It's been a while." His voice was gravelly, warm. Then, when Arga explained what he needed—a copy of the operation report from the Bekasi warehouse fire—the line went quiet."Bima Mahendra," Pak Hendra repeated slowly when Arga said the name. "I remember that case. It never sat right with me."He explained what Arga only half remembered. The preliminary report stated that Bima had left the scene before casualty registration was complete. That was all. No hospital admission that night. No police statement. No official record of where he'd gone. A man who had been screaming for his son simply walked away into the dark, and no one ever asked why."There were a lot of loose ends that night," Pak Hendra said. "We lost Fajar. Everyone was… We weren't thinking about paperwork."Now that the door to that night had been fo
CHAPTER 7: THE FAMILY STILL WAITING
The meeting took place in a bare conference room at the child protection agency: a long table, plastic chairs, a whiteboard with half-erased notes from some earlier session. Pak Yusuf sat at one end. Dimas and Arga sat along one side.At a quarter past ten the door opened and a woman came in, followed by an older man who held his cap in both hands. The woman was in her early thirties, wearing a simple headscarf the color of dried leaves. She carried a battered plastic folder pressed against her chest like a shield."Lestari," she said. "And this is my older brother, Mas Joko." She opened the folder with careful fingers and laid out its contents: a family card, birth certificates, a creased photograph. "I'm Alif's aunt. On his father's side."For two years, she told them, she had searched for her nephew through every channel she could find. Hospitals. Police stations. Social services. Mosques that ran orphan programs. Every trail ended in the same place: a polite official telling her t
CHAPTER 8: THE MASK OF RENDRA WIJAYA
The new evidence came from a woman named Ratna, a former finance officer at Rendra's company, who agreed to meet Dimas only in the food court of a crowded mall, where the clatter of a hundred conversations swallowed theirs.She brought a flash drive and a thick envelope. The documents inside showed that several of the foundation's transactions didn't match its reported social activities. Money marked for school supplies had gone somewhere else. Money for shelter renovations had gone somewhere else. And the forged power of attorney bearing Arga's name had been used to support an application for a partnership deal—lending the project the respectability of a married couple and a firefighter's clean public record."It's not enough to say who's responsible," Dimas told Arga afterward, spreading the papers across his desk. "Not yet. But it's enough to hand to the authorities. Enough to make them look."Arga stared at the pages for a long time."I don't want this to turn into a personal war,
CHAPTER 9: A WIFE'S DECISION
Nadira spent the next two nights on the floor of a small rented room in Tebet—she had left Rendra's apartment the morning after his threat, taking only what fit in one bag—surrounded by paper.Every document Rendra had ever handed her, she gathered. Contracts. Agreements. Attachments she had signed in cafés, in the back seats of cars, in the minutes before meetings while Rendra stood over her shoulder saying *just there, and there, it's only a formality.* She had never read most of them properly. Now she did.There were pages on corporate liability. Clauses about how the foundation's funds were to be used and who would answer for them if they weren't. Her signature appeared on several. The dates showed that she had approved them without understanding even half of what they said.She felt sick. She remembered laughing at something Rendra said while her pen moved across these very pages. She remembered thinking how lucky she was to have someone so capable looking out for her. Now every
CHAPTER 10: THE FIRE THAT HASN'T DIED
The call came in at 2:14 on a Thursday afternoon, while the documents were still under examination.*Warehouse fire. Cikarang industrial zone. Multiple workers unaccounted for.*Arga was already pulling on his turnout coat when the dispatcher read out the details, and something in him went cold. He knew the name of the company that owned that warehouse. He had seen it on a dozen pages over the past weeks, printed in neat letterhead beside Rendra Wijaya's signature.He had no time to think about what that meant. The engine was already moving.They arrived to a wall of smoke so thick it turned the afternoon to dusk. Black clouds poured from the roof and rolled across the parking lot, carrying the bitter stench of burning plastic and something chemical underneath. On the east side of the building, where industrial equipment was stored, flames climbed the walls in long orange tongues.Arga moved the way he had been trained to move—the way his body moved now without asking his mind. He dir