Chapter 38
last update2026-04-21 01:29:14

When I got home Lily was not in her room.

I noticed this because I always checked her room first when I came back in the evenings. It has grown to be a habit I couldn't stop myself from exhibiting. Before I walked up the stairs, I looked through her door to confirm that she was there and that she was fine.

Her door was open and the room was empty.

I did not panic. The house was secure. Henry was somewhere and Agent Cole was here too. I simply turned and went looking for her.

I found them in the kitchen. She and agent Yemi. She was sitting on the counter and I'd told her countless times never to do it but she always did.

Kids.

She was eating something from a bowl placed on her knee.

Agent Yemi stood a few feet away from.her, leaning against the kitchen counter. She was also eating the same thing from her plate.

They weren't talking, only eating in silence which was comfortable between them.

I wondered how the both became so comfortable with each other when they only met each other like a few days ago.

I stood in the kitchen doorway and watched.

None of them noticed me.

Lily looked at her plate and then at Yemi and they both laughed at something. Then Agent Yemi looked at her plate and said something back which made Lily laugh so hard.

Something settled in my chest.

It's been a few days Agent Yemi came into the house and it felt like she's been here for years. It just seemed like she was the one Lily has been waiting for all her life. In these days,

Agent Yemi had simply settled into the quiet and steady simple life of Lily making her happy and curious and girly.

Agent Yemi was kind. She did not make a performance of her presence. She was simply always there and always calm and always paying attention and Lily had adjusted to her the way children adjust to things that are consistent and safe which is to say completely and without much fuss.

But Agent Coke was different from Agent Yemi even though he was good at his own job as well. He was more quiet and formal in his manner of approach. He spoke to Lily respectfully.

Lily could only talk and laugh like that with Agent Yemi and not agent Cole.

I guess I made the right choice.

She had already worked everything out with Lily and I was here worrying about a lot of things.

I stepped into the kitchen after trying so hard to hide my laughter.

Lily looked up immediately.

"You're home," she said.

"I am."

"You're late."

"I know. I had a meeting."

She looked at me with the specific expression she used when she was assessing whether my explanation was adequate. Then she held out her plate toward me.

"Do you want some?" she asked. "Cook made them. They are very good. Yemi had three already."

"I had two," Agent Yemi said without moving from her position against the wall.

"I counted three," Lily said.

"I counted two."

Lily looked at her with great dignity. "I am better at numbers than you."

Agent Yemi considered this. "That is probably true," she said.

I took a piece from Lily's plate. It was some kind of small pastry with something sweet inside. Lily watched me eat it with the focused attention of someone waiting for a review.

"Good," I said.

She nodded like this confirmed something she already knew.

Later that evening I was in Lily's bedroom while I got her ready for bed.

This was also a habit I had. It was usually in the evening, that I would sit with Lily in the bedroom and we would do various things before she slept. She would change into her pink pajamas, brush her teeth and find her rabbit.

She always loved talking to me about her school and how her classmates made her angry. She loved talking about her teacher and her best friend, Mia.

Tonight she climbed into bed and pulled the covers up and held the rabbit and looked at the ceiling for a moment.

"Yemi told me something today," she said.

"What did she tell you?"

"She told me that her job is to make sure I am safe." Lily paused. "I already knew that. I am not stupid."

"I know you are not stupid."

"But I didn't tell her that I knew because I didn't want to make her feel bad about explaining it." She turned her head to look at me. "That was kind of me wasn't it?"

"Very kind," I said.

She looked back at the ceiling. "I like her," she said simply. "She is funny when she thinks nobody is watching. She makes faces when she doesn't agree with something but she doesn't want to say it out loud."

"What kind of faces?"

Lily demonstrated. It was a very specific face. Controlled on the surface but with one eyebrow doing something slightly different from the other.

I recognised it immediately. I had seen Agent Yemi make exactly that face during the security briefing when one of Agent Reeves's team members suggested a protocol she clearly thought was unnecessary.

"You are very observant," I said.

"I know," Lily said. She pulled the rabbit closer. "Brother."

"Yes."

"Are you going to tell me why she is really here?"

I looked at her.

She was still looking at the ceiling. Her voice had been completely ordinary when she asked the question. Like she didn't want to sound rude but needed answers. Just the question sitting there between us like she had put it down on the bed and was waiting to see what I would do with it.

Agent Reeves had told me that children would always ask questions. She said that I needed to be honest. He said I shouldn't be frightened. I already had a version of what to say.

____________

But sitting in the chair looking at Lily's small face I found that the prepared version felt wrong. I had been too careful with it. She was five and she was not stupid and she deserved the real version in words she could hold.

"You know that some people have been trying to cause problems for our family," I said.

"The bad people," she said immediately.

"Yes."

"The ones who tried to grab me at school."

"Yes."

She was quiet for a moment. "Are they still trying?"

"I am working on making sure they stop," I said. "And while I am working on that Yemi and Cole are here to make sure that you are safe every single day. So that nothing like what happened at school can happen again."

Lily processed this. She was quiet long enough that I wondered if she had more questions or if she was done.

Then she said: "Okay."

Just that. Okay.

"Okay?" I asked.

"Yes." She turned to look at me again. "I already knew something like that was the reason. I just wanted you to tell me instead of thinking I was too small to understand." She paused. "I am not too small to understand things."

"I know," I said. "I am sorry for not telling you sooner."

She considered this. "It is all right," she said. "You were busy." She yawned. "Cole is very tall."

"He is."

"He smells like soap."

"That is generally a good quality."

"Yemi smells like flowers." She yawned again. "I told her that and she said thank you and I could tell she actually meant it and wasn't just being polite." Her eyes were getting heavy. "Some people say thank you and they don't mean it. I can tell the difference."

"You can," I agreed.

"Mia is coming back to school on Monday," she said. Her voice was softer now. Almost at the edge of sleep. "Agent Reeves said it was fine for her to come and that her parents said yes."

I had met Mia's parents four days earlier. A quiet conversation over coffee in a cafe near the school. They were ordinary careful people who loved their daughter and had been worried since the incident at the gate that they didn't fully understand.

I told them what they needed to know. Not everything. But enough. They had been relieved to understand the shape of it and to know that the school protocols had been significantly upgraded. Mia's father had shaken my hand at the end and said he appreciated the honesty.

"I know," I said. "I am glad."

"We are going to do the butterfly project together," Lily said. "We have been planning it for weeks. We have very specific ideas about which butterfly is the best."

"Which butterfly is the best?" I yawned. I was tired myself but I wouldn't let her know.

"The blue morpho," she said immediately. "Obviously."

"Obviously," I agreed.

She was almost asleep. Her breathing had changed. The rabbit was tucked under her chin.

I sat in the chair for another minute after her eyes closed. The nightlight shaped like a star was doing its quiet work in the corner. The panic button inside it was invisible from where I sat, which was the point. It was there and Lily knew it was there and that was what mattered.

I thought about the tea house and Victoria's face across the table.

I thought about the seventeen page document from Agent Reeves.

I thought about all the moving pieces of everything that was still in progress and all the work that was still to be done before this was finished.

Then I looked at Lily sleeping with her rabbit and the star shaped light making soft patterns on the wall and I thought about how this was also true at the same time. This room and this child and this quiet and the fact that she was safe tonight.

Both things were true at once.

I stood up carefully so the chair would not creak and I walked to the door and turned off the main light so only the nightlight remained.

At the door I paused.

Agent Cole was in the corridor. He was standing a few feet from Lily's door in the way he always stood during the evening shift. Upright. Alert. Present without being intrusive.

He nodded when he saw me.

I nodded back.

Then I went to the study and opened my laptop and went back to work because there was always still work to do and the walls around Victoria Pierce were still getting closer together and I intended to make sure they kept moving.

But first I sent Henry a message.

It said: "Lily knows about Yemi and Cole. I told her the truth in simple terms. She took it well."

Henry replied in two minutes.

"I expected nothing less from her," he wrote. "She is a Blackwell after all."

I read that twice.

Then I smiled and got back to work.

It seemed like life was about to get better for my family. Lily was happy even now that she had people following her.

She seemed to understand and didn't mind at all.

She simply said that we now had more people in our family and that made me smile. She's been talking about Agent Yemi a lot and I agreed. The woman was beautiful and healthy and didn't care about anything else except her job.

She respected and greeted me whenever I walked past but that was it. She didn't look at me twice or..

What?

Why did I need her to look at me twice? I stopped thinking and closed my eyes for a while.

I had a lot to worry about apart from Lily's new beautiful agent.

Victoria.

After our meeting, I just knew that I had to get stronger in fighting her. Victoria knew what she did and for Nineteen years she's been trying to hide it.

She was not about to let her guard down now that I wanted revenge.

I needed to make new plans with Henry. I needed to fight it.

Continue to read this book for free
Scan the code to download the app

Latest Chapter

  • chapter 118

    The Sarah Blackwell Foundation launch had been planned for months, long before the verdict, long before Daniel's sentencing, long before any of us had known exactly what shape the trial's ending would take. Henry had insisted on that timeline early on, back when the whole idea had still been little more than a conversation in the study — that the Foundation should never appear to be a reaction to the trial, something conjured up in its aftermath to manage public perception, but something built carefully and deliberately alongside it, so that when it finally opened its doors, it could stand entirely on its own."If we launch it the week of the verdict," Henry had told me back then, "it will read as strategy. If we launch it on its own timeline, regardless of what the trial is doing, it will read as what it actually is."I had not fully understood, at the time, how much that distinction would matter. I understood it now, standing in the small courtyard behind the Bla

  • chapter 117

    Lily found me in the garden that evening, where I had gone to watch the last of the daylight fade behind the trees, and climbed up onto the bench beside me with her rabbit tucked under one arm, the same way she had climbed up onto so many benches, over so many difficult evenings, across this entire strange, extraordinary year."Henry told me about Daniel," she said. "Eight years. That's a really long time.""It is," I agreed."Longer than I've been alive," Lily observed, working through the maths with visible concentration. "Longer than I've been alive twice, almost.""Almost," I agreed again.She was quiet for a moment, swinging her feet where they did not quite reach the ground from the bench."Do you feel bad for him?" she asked. "Even though he was one of the bad people?"I considered the question carefully, the way I had learned to consider most of Lily's questions, understanding that she rarely asked something simp

  • chapter 116

    "No," Emma agreed. "It's actually the only thing I have that I'm proud of, if I'm being completely honest. Isn't that strange? Everything I used to think mattered — the money, the status, the way I looked in a room — none of it feels like it means anything now. The thing I'm actually proud of is standing in a witness box and telling twelve strangers the truth, even though it cost me everything."I thought about that for a long moment, about the particular strange arc of Emma Clarke's story — the woman who had once told me, cruelly and deliberately, that I would never be enough, who had married into wealth and comfort and lost herself, slowly, inside the performance of it, only to find, at the very end of all of it, that the truest thing she had ever done was the thing that cost her the most."What are you going to do," I asked. "Now that it's actually over.""I don't know yet," Emma admitted. "I think I need some time before I figure that out. I've spent s

  • chapter 115

    The press storm did not wait for morning.By the time I woke, barely six hours after finally falling asleep the night of the verdict, my phone had already accumulated more notifications than I had the patience to scroll through — messages from Gerald, from Patricia, from numbers I did not recognise claiming to represent one outlet or another, and beneath all of it, a headline from Sandra Wealth's own publication that Henry had apparently forwarded sometime after midnight with no comment attached, only the link itself.VICTORIA PIERCE CONVICTED: THE FULL STORY OF SARAH BLACKWELL, TWENTY YEARS IN THE MAKING.I read it standing in my bedroom in the grey early light, still in the clothes I had fallen asleep in the night before, and found that Sandra had done exactly what she had promised, months ago, in that meeting room — told the complete story, without flattering any version of it, including the parts that complicated rather than simplified my own place in it. She had included Victoria

  • chapter 114

    We left the courthouse into a wall of noise unlike anything I had experienced through the entire trial — cameras flashing in a continuous, overlapping strobe, questions shouted from every direction, the particular frenzy of a story reaching its climax in real time in front of a crowd that had been waiting for exactly this moment.I did not answer any of it, the same as I had not answered anything through the previous two weeks, but I found, walking through it this time, that I did not feel the same tight, defensive bracing I had felt on every previous day. Something in me had loosened, finally, released by the weight of the verdict, and I walked through that crowd of shouted questions and flashing cameras with something that felt, for the first time in longer than I could remember, almost like peace.Brandon's team got us to the car quickly, and Henry drove, and Yemi sat pressed close beside me in the back seat, her head resting against my shoulder, and none of us

  • chapter 113

    I did not look at Victoria. I could not, in that first instant, tear my eyes away from the jury foreperson, from the plain, steady certainty in her voice, as though looking away too quickly might somehow unmake what had just been said."On the second count," Judge Adeyemi continued, her voice unwavering, "manslaughter, in the matter of James Blackwell — how do you find?""Guilty," the foreperson said."On the third count, manslaughter, in the matter of Nora Blackwell — how do you find?""Guilty," the foreperson said, for the third time, and I felt something in my chest finally, fully release, a year of held breath escaping all at once, and beside me I heard Yemi make a small sound that was not quite a sob but came close to one, and felt Henry's hand come to rest briefly, firmly, on my shoulder.I turned, finally, to look at Victoria.She had not moved.She stood exactly where she had stood when the verdict began, her pos

More Chapter
Explore and read good novels for free
Free access to a vast number of good novels on MegaNovel app. Download the books you like and read anywhere & anytime.
Read books for free on the app
Scan code to read on App