Ch 03.3

“Eh!!? You don’t remember anything!!”

Lilia’s reaction when I told her about my lost memory was… surprise to say the least. Her eyes went wide as she covered her open mouth with both her hands.

“Well, there are things that I remember but…” scratching the back of my head I couldn’t help but look down. “Most of it isn’t of much help.”

“You don’t remember your name?” She asked

“No.”

“And where you are from?”

“Not a clue.”

“Any people you were close to? Your family or a friend or…”

“No one comes to mind.”

“What do you remember then?”

“hmm…” I looked up to the sky and thought about it for a moment.

“I remember that it was a really bad day… and that I almost got killed… oh, and I can recognize my face too.”

“Is that it?”

“Yes…”

Lilia went quite, looking at the ground with clear depression.

“Sorry…” her voice was so faint, almost unnoticeable.

“What are you apologizing for?”

“You were going through such a hardship, and I didn’t even notice…”

Please, just stop. Giving that sympathetic look when we just met the day before. I’m starting to feel pathetic again.

“Well, don’t let it bother you. I didn’t care much in the first place.”

“… You don’t remember who you are and you’re fine with it?”

“Yeah…” it’s just a small inconvenience. I have a lot more to be concerned about right now.

Silence made its appearance from there on. Sitting there with a depressed, but still beautiful Lilia is the pinnacle of awkwardness. Added to that the fact that I look like a cave man with the long hair and a beard. I need to do something.

“… Lilia…” this is the first time I called her by her name, I hope I’m not blushing right now. “You don’t have to worry about it, I will probably remember everything in due time. But honestly, I don’t think there is anything worth remembering, that’s why I’m so relaxed about it.”

“You don’t remember so how can you be so sure? You won’t know whether you are missing something important if you can’t remember it to begin with!”

“Well… you’re not wrong… I guess…”

I’m on a planet millions of light years away from earth talking to an alien. My family, classmates, acquaintances, the city , the neighborhood, my home and room. They are most likely gone, all of them.

I kinda still want my things back but aside from that I have no real, strong attachment to my old life. If I have to choose, being here with Lilia is many times better than spending all day in a dark room doing nothing. Hey, maybe I can use this to flirt with her a little? I’m not the most experienced in to topic but nothing will happen if I don’t try, right?

Let’s see. I want to convey something like “I’m fine as long as I have you”, but I can’t say it directly. That’s too big of a hurdle, and she will probably think I’m just being creepy. Let’s make it as indirect as it could while still maintaining the same meaning.

“… I think I’m fine with how things are now.”

Yeah, that should do. I’m sure I will get better eventually so let’s take it one step at a time. Or so I thought. The backlash hit me a second later and I started feeling physical pain. Who could’ve guessed that trying to get close to a girl would put this much strain on me.

Lilia hugged her knees as she thought about something. Her care is a waste on someone like me, someone she met a few hours ago. She seems like a kind person, but was she always like this? In another situation I’m sure we wouldn’t even get to talk.

She reminds me of the princess archetype you see in Japanese anime and games, the ones with the strange laugh. She surely would have frowned at the idea of talking to someone like me. Maybe the isolation changed her?

No. Lilia is a kind and caring girl. It’s just there, no need for high communication skills to see it. I can tell she is genuinely worried about me, it makes me feel pathetic but I’m happy to have such a cute girl care for me.

“Anyways, the problem with my memories should be solved with time, no need to be impatient” I said, trying my best to smile. “As for what to call me… let’s wait for sometime before deciding, we won’t need it here anyway with just the two of us around.”

Lilia nodded, we then returned to the awkward silence.