The Narcist

The Bully

Having 12 family members in one house is not easy.

The fact that there are many basic human needs which must be fulfilled well physically and non-physically become very complex when each member who lives under the same one roof have burden on their shoulders ,along with their respective rights and obligations to carry out.

Small income can be triggers to yield jealousy on each others.

 If Mr Fazan prioritizes one of the children for example ,Arkadevi is bought a raincoat jacket, then Gerina will ask for the same or another stuff ,but the point is that everyone demand for having the similar stuff at the same time .

 If mother deals with it unfairly by giving unwise opinion and indulge any girl who complain ,l want shoes.Asfarina got what she asked ..why dad doesn't do the same for me ?"

 And that's what often happens Mom ,instead of giving her understanding to give in and waiting for other time for dad to get his time ,she consoled her in a wrong way by indulgence.

Sugarcoating words is often useless and rubbish .

Why?because almost all of her opinions are based on favoritism.

Aby felt his father's sadness in facing that fact. One time he said to him ,

,,I want to help you .dad...I want to find a job to make you feel better .. more comfortable and peaceful ...,"

Dad just stroking his hair and gently put his head on his lap .

,,Don't you ever think of getting work now ,Aby .You only a kid and go to school.You already help lots of things in this house ..l know my dear ..Lev is the only one that make you happy." 

,,You make me happy too ,dad .." he said while taking his dad 's palm on his cheek and pressed it to him .

His dad just staring at him and let Aby sleep slowly.

Whenever this happen and one of his sister passes and look at them that way , she gives an unpleasant grimace as if it is something silly or overwhelming.

The affection beetween the father and the son is like something weird and improper in their eyes .. because they keep the jealousy.They want to be treated the same way which is not possible as their age ...Aby was only 9 years old and at that age he behave decently ..unlike most of those boys .This treatment from his sister is on and on till he was at secondary school.

Flow ..glow

But best in its shape and fact is growing older ,dear sisters ..

Is it planted in deep soul,the seed of goodness at everybody heart ?

Is it watered by more idea of fertilizing,

Let the rain wet the ground and the dry barren earth started to emerge some trees with green leaves come for it.

Mud and little worms too.

That is compassion that grows..

Not only the beauty,

But also the fact of life in surroundings 

that link to it .

"Dad..in the silence I hear myself speak to myself..

I think my eyes started to wet when 

I aware 

that many efforts l have done finally come to failures.

Many things happen because of the silence tears..l don't blame anyone for anything,dad ,l just don't understand why l never able to please them " said Aby one day to his father when they were planting some cassava and sweet potatoes in the back yard .

,,My dear ..tears Of pain that whisper in pray is the best you can do .

You know what you feel and try all the way comprehend all the situation..that's the time you find a meaning for any efforts you do .,,

,,When we know how fragile and powerless we are,

So ...l will think , 

Rethink and sensing everything.

Any wish and wills inside telling you where to go ..

You know better yourself and what is good for you to serve them as a good brother for 

them..look at my example..l love all my children but what l do seem never good enough for them and they accuse me of being an unjust dad " .

, Involving you in every breath l take as you are ...,

,,I know the reason,dad ..." 

"Do you ...?"

Asked his father in half belief .Did Aby know that his mother has such superiority complex..? Because of being an only child ? She loves to be treated specially indulgent..? Or her matriarchal side of hereditary cultural base ?

Magnetic ones. 

The talk beetween the two .Even Lev hasn't understood yet on what they talked about,but usually he sat near them while playing and silently absorbed some experience and knowledge from it in a way of a little kid does.

,,When can l put on the uniform like that ?" Said Lev whilst watching Aby dressed up for school .

Before he could answer him ,Fetina called him with loud and commanding voice.

,,Aby !! Make my bed ! "

Aby did it with the risk of being late to school and has punishment for that ,beside the mockery of his classmates.

Lev stared at him in pity ..

Arriving at the school gate, it has already closed. He had to wait another 20 minutes until the gatekeeper opened the gate. That was the rule, being late for half an hour of class equaled one hour of lessons which totaled 45 minutes in each subject. Then he would be questioned by the teacher what was the reason of being late, allowed or not to attend the rest of the lesson depends on the teacher strict ness. If he allowed him the whole class would laugh at him, ridicule him and brand him as undisciplined, naughty, or whatever they pleased. Or other sanctions, standing in front of the class like an idiot, looking around. Some are punished by having to clean the toilet.

that's so disgusting. .

At recess hour he comes out, waited by a group of school children and friends from other classes who mingled to his own classmates.

 They were ready to shout at him with various ridicules .

,,Girl ! sweeping, cleaning, taking care of younger sibling, shopping at the market... haha...!"

,,And just earlier ..he just cleaned the school toilets... right!"

,,Step child ! step child ! step child ! ,,

,, Hey Aby...your shoes are gaping ..wanted to eat!"

,,Buy a uniform at a flea market!"

,, You eat rest of your sister food!, you can just get the rest of your sister dish !! ha ha if they eat all till finish,then he doesn't eat anything ..starving !"

Aby continued walking with a normal face, without any expression. One word of resistance could invite a fight. They might gang up on him. Aby never disturbs or harms any of them. Why do they bother him? Yes, hie clothes and shoes are indeed worn out. But he doesn't stink, because he maintains cleanliness.

 Since Aby doesn't contradict anything to them and does not fight them so that they haven't found a way to hurt him hitting him .

What's wrong with Abby? Is poverty a sin? Is sweeping the floor and feeding his younger sibling a flaw or disgrace ? 

So ,with such persistence and self esteem,he walked on, showing no anger, no offense, not even looked hurt.