DELUSION

chapter 2

A body that has already fallen cannot rise again. With her mouth still open,Yuda's mother was still shocked by the discovery of human body parts in the room. With a limp body, backwards and out of Yuda's room.

Hoek ..., hoek ..., hoek ....

All the breakfast that goes into the intestines comes out without a fight. With a body of cold sweat, his mother looked back at the severed finger lying on the floor.

Tetttttttt...

The bell ringing from behind the ground floor door added to the surprise of Yuda's half-conscious mother. His mother came downstairs and saw who had come in this rainy weather. Then the door was opened, and he saw a man standing at the door of his house with a soaked raincoat . The courier asked Yuda's mother to pay for the package, $100. Yuda's mother was curious about what her son had bought at such a low price. His mother then asked the courier to enter the house, and brought a package weighing 3 kilograms into the living room. Then his mother went into the room to get the money.

"My god, what did my son order?" Yuda's mother muttered. The courier immediately turned around with a confused look on his face.

"Please help bring it into the house!" Yuda's mother, who could not carry the package, ordered the courier to enter the house.

"Here's the money!" said Yuda's mother, coming out of the room to find her emaciated in the living room. However, the courier was silent and did not answer. The courier was still busy with his eyes going around looking at every corner of the house where Yuda's family had lived for 25 years.

"Here is the money! Go and don't come back!" Yuda's mother snapped angrily, tapping the courier on the shoulder. The courier grabbed the money with an angry look and left.

With a heavy heart, his mother returned to Yuda's room again. His mother took a handkercief, then wrapped the finger and put it back in the original box.

Hoekk ..., hoekkk ..., hoekk ....

With a limp body, his mother went to the toilet to vomit again. Then for a moment, he leaned his back in the bathroom for a moment because he has no more strength.

His mother took a deep breath, which caused her diaphragm to rise and then fall. After that, he took the vacuum cleaner out of Yuda's room, hoping that he would not stop in that disgusting place again.

His mother's thoughts about bad things about Yuda became more and more dominant in her mind after she saw some of the collections in Yuda's room which were absolutely horrible.

'Whose finger is that?' His mother kept muttering, thinking about the owner of the body parts lying on her study table.

For a moment, he sat on one of the steps to catch his breath again. And after he started to feel relieved, his mother went to her room with a vacuum cleaner to clean her private room.

Her eyes wandered around the framed family photo hanging on the wall, bringing back her dark memories. With great emotion, his mother took down all the photos and threw them in all directions without thinking. Some of the glass frames were broken and the shards filled the room. As if that was not enough , his mother angrily took out all the clothes in the closet. After his mother's energy ran out, her body lay limp on the floor of the room. He was staring at the roof and the small lights that were burning just above it.

The feeling of strength seemed to disappear, and a feeling of fear emerged from its hiding place. A pink and lily pattern scarf is currently in his mother's hands. A gift from Yuda's father for the last time before he leaves with another woman. The young woman who is more successful in winning her father's love at this time.

The body of this 40-year-old woman can only think of the worst thing in her life. The possibility that his mother would have committed suicide if it were not for Yuda. Then the sound of laughter echoed through the room. His mother realized that her life had never been happy. Especially after Yuda's father left, his mother had to take care of Yuda, who was often depressed and delusional.

A pair of eyes wandered around, staring at all the scattered things as his mother thought. 'I am tired,' thought someone who always has delusions.

Until late afternoon, black clouds and raindrops had not abated since the morning.

Brakkk ...,

The door was wide open, Yuda had just come home with a wet raincoat. He took off his shoes, which were wet and full of mud and pulled the raincoat on with all his might. The sound of gasping for breath was still felt by Yuda. With bare, wet feet, Yuda entered the house and climbed the stairs to his room one by one.

When he reached his bedroom door, his footsteps stopped. He stared at his mother's room, which was visible from his bedroom door, but his mother's room was still closed. It felt strange when he was used to hearing his mother's angry screams when he came home late. Now it's even quieter.

Yuda pulled the door handle and entered the room, taking out all his wet books out of his bag. Then I took the towel and went to the bathroom.

After 10 minutes, Yuda came out of the bathroom and dried my hair in front of the bedroom window. Then his eyes fell on the black box that was on his study table. Yuda felt that the position of the box had changed . Yuda was annoyed and threw his towel on the bed. Yuda realized that his mother always searched his room when he was away.

With an annoyed face, Yuda went into his mother's room and yelled at his mother behind the door. After waiting for quite a while, there was no answer from his mother, who was inside. Yuda then forced open the door to his mother's room. His mother turned around and looked at Yuda. Yuda then saw the swollen eyes in his mother's eyes.

"I told you never touch anything in my room!" Yuda snapped at his mother.Their mother was silent, then took some tricyclic antidepressant pills.

"If you want to die, just die! Annoying!" Yuda grumbled, then picked up his mother's medicine bottle and threw it at the door, scattering his mother's pills all over on the floor. His mother, however, did not dodge, but got into bed and lay down. She pulled off the covers and slowly closed her eyes.

Seeing his mother's messy room, Yuda gave in because his mother looked unwell. Yuda left his mother's room and returned to his room on the 2nd floor. Feelings that were still annoying made Yuda's heartbeat unstable. Blood slowly came out of his mouth, and then a blood clot like a small heart also came out.

'Damn it!' Yuda thought breathlessly. His steps stopped at one of the stairs to rest for a moment. Another small crimson blood clot came out of his mouth. Due to his chronic bronchitis, his lungs are often clogged and secrete mucus. The cold temperature couldn't make him survive well. It rained all day while he was in the garden behind the school, making him weak. Yuda tried to calm down and sat down for a while.

After his body began to recover, Yuda walked slowly, only 2 more steps to the front door of his room.When the door to his room was opened, Yuda picked up the inhaler lying on the floor and inhaled heavily. His eyes wandered to the small black box lying under his bag. Yuda put the inhaler down and opened the contents of the black box. His smile widened as he saw a fresh eyeball inside, a girl's retina seeming to stare back sharply.