Killer's last word

I took a deep breath while looking into the void, I didn't know what I should do, if I would listen to my wishes or if I would keep the promise I made.

I can't quite figure out if I should be selfish or if I should pay for all my sins.

I don't want to live in a world where there is a heavy sin. Even before I met her, I wanted to disappear.

Even before she came into my life, I was always looking for a way to end my life without feeling pain.

But when she came, my world changed. I remember what she said before. "If you have a problem, pray, killing yourself is not the solution to all your problems." That's what always sticks in my mind every time I try to commit suicide.

One day I tried what she said, I prayed even though I didn't know how. I didn't even know how to do the sign of the cross so I just went straight to telling him what I wanted to say. I asked for forgiveness for the mistakes I made, and I asked for guidance on whether to correct my mistakes.

On the day of her father's fun