WHAT IS DYING

I couldn't reply to what she said . All I did was look at her . She went near me and gave me a book ." Oh this novel  fell from your bag  "  

" Thankyou" I didn't say more, just saying thank you . But there is something odd.  She was just looking at me , it looked like she was gazing at me nonstop . For a moment I thought, is there something on my face ? But i didn't ask that , even she was wearing mask i can felt she was smiling warmly . 

" Woow…. I am amazed you read this novel , do you like novels ? Really ? Really? Really? Wow, you know I  want to try reading novels . And this novel I heard is so popular … " 

And I get to know damn this girl is talkative , unlike me  .  I don't know what to say . But the way she was looking at me with eyes . It's something that keeps me holding on and makes me keep looking at her eyes . All i could replied was " yes " 

" So you really like novels?"she said 

" Yes , i like novels , i also have collection at my home "

" Can you lend me one  ? please …please please " 

" Oh okay " 

I gave her my novel that she picked up . 

" Thankyou" 

Her friends were standing behind and were watching us and one of them called her "oi , what are you doing ? And why did you suddenly wear a mask?" 

I gave her my novel and went to my class . It was no point standing there and hearing them talk .

And after that day here we go  .

Day1- 

"It was great novel give me more "

Day2- " Hello MR weird person ,how are you doing? hehe" 

Day3- " oi…wanna go with me to bookstore" 

And this progress continued for one week or more. She kept coming to my class after break or  in recess like everyday or  whenever she got free. Like why ? I seem free to her   . 

" Oi- she came back again. She is a first year  sakura yamaguchi. I heard she is so popular . Are you two dating? But it's weird  you always ignored her ?" One of my classmates who sits next to me said,

" It's none of your business " I said .

And packed my bag and went outside but she was still standing there outside waiting for me. It's been a week or more  . Like this and slowly  days passed . She makes me forcefully go with her after school or on weekends . I ignored her and  even  didn't talk to her but still she comes everyday and waits for me .

Now it's been a month and what the hell i am here with her again . 

How did she find my house ? What is she doing here And it's Sunday?  

" Let's go to eat ice-cream please “

…. And i let's go to amusement park too  ".  She was standing in front of my house and was wearing a short overall dress and here i was standing in front of her with messy hair and face .

"How do you know where I lived ? " 

" Who cares, get ready, we have to go, " she said .

"What?".

And foolishly without even saying no . I get ready , I was wearing fine clothes and looked at myself in the mirror and noticed something . The calendar that was on my table seems to have changed .

" Umm.. i  don't know why you kept a calendar when you don't  use it, its april and your calendar keeps hanging on January"  she said 

She changed the calendar to april month and marked today's day .

I was about to say don't touch my calendar but i still can't bring myself to say no .I wonder whenever she does something I never say no to her .There something different in her in other . But now looked at the calendar I felt something different in my heart . Wait , did my heart just beat?. I don't know. The moment she changed the calendar date , i felt like my time starts to flow again . What was this weird feeling. It’s just a calendar . 

. Little did I know everything was going to change .

After some hours ( we were coming back ) all I wondered about was I didn't want to go but why still I go and can’t say no.

. I can say no to her but why didn't i say ? Then I looked at her , she was smiling and looking at her , I realized it wasn't that bad , it was fun .  I wonder  it's been a month since and i never  seen her without a mask and I never asked her tho . Maybe, i don't really care how she looked like right! .

" It was fun right? "

"Nope  It was fine day for me " 

" So i can see, you have fun "

" Hey , i didn't say it was fun"

"Yes for you it was " she said and smiled

I don't know how she finds out .

" So what does dying mean for you?" She asked.

I don't know why she asked this. It's the first time i see her talking about something like that . All i know she always talked about things that make her happy.it felt odd . But instead of asking her why did she ask that ? All i could say that 

" The moment you stop feeling anything , maybe that what i call dying" i said 

" So everyday you feel like this right!? Or you pretend you don’t feel anything when you actually do" 

When she said that , I just halted and wasn't in a moment to reply to what she said . I didn't reply to her . And i couldn't even say that she was wrong, when she wasn’t wrong maybe  . 

" Then what if i died what will you do?" .she asked 

" I don't know , maybe I won't really care " I don't know why i said that. Well it's true , I always act this way . But after saying that, why my heart says it is not something I want to say . Maybe  I lied. But why would i lie for no reason .

" That's so you "she giggled .

I didn't say anything .

"That's the reason I like to stay with you , I like the way you won't care about the surroundings . But I know even if you lie you won't forget me , right!. Even if you tried  " she said with a smile , i can feel she was smiling under her mask .

When she said that, ‘I won't forget her ‘. I don't know if it directly hit my heart . It wasn't true but it wasn't wrong either .I don't know what it was . 

Suddenly she walked two steps forward and removed her mask and said " goodbye yuki" with a smile.

I was so shocked when I saw her face. No it can't be she is- . 

I didn't notice she  ran towards the road , when the signal went green . 

And standing there I was so lost in questions when I saw her real identity but I gathered myself and got to know actually  why she talked about dying ? and suddenly showed her  face , runed away and  stood  in the middle of road where cars were moving . 

I saw a truck come and was about to hit her . But she was standing there smiling at me  . I ran as quickly as I could and jumped and held her . 

I saved her ? What ? I really saved her ? I don't even know . my arms hurt ,and  got injured in order to protect her  . I looked at her and jumped over her and held both of her arms  ."Are you out of your mind ? What were you doing ? You-" i don’t why I was so nervous and went worried .I noticed blood starts to come out of her mouth. 

" What ?? Are you alright?" i became worried . And i noticed she was disappearing her body was fading and all she said was " thank you"