2022-03-12 14:23:59Everything is happening again and again . I tried my best but it wasn't enough to save you . Again you are in my hands and you are disappearing . Please don't go . Please don't go . My tears are falling again , I know it is destined but no matter how much I try ? , no matter how much I travel in other dimensions to save you . I failed and like always you are leaving me by saying "Thankyou , for making me feel alive " with a smile .
What is this alive actually meant? .
How can you say that? When you are going away again? How can you be smiling right now ? This sword crosses you in heart ? Blood is coming continuously ? Aren't you hurt ? How can you be so happy? When all I want is you . My tears were dropping on her face that was smiling , a body of hers that I hold in my hands , that is disappearing and fading in every second . All I can do is to hug her in her last moment until she vanishes away and only leaves her memories .
And her last words she said with a laughing face were `` oi , this time don't come near my grave … I won't be there to wipe your tears and thank you for the love . You know, no matter how much you try my death is destined so let's finally say a goodbye and don't chase me anymore " she vanished within my hands while i was hugging her .
All came to my mind was ,how ? How can she smile again and again , every time she dies? No, she already knew it was going to come anyway . All I did was scream loudly with tears in my eyes " don't leave me , don't make me alone again. "
I wonder where things get started and I end up playing this fate game.
6 months ago .
It was March morning .A beautiful spring had started . Like always I woke up with same dream of girl actually it always came once a month . Who knows why a same girl always came in my dream . I just ignore the dream actually it been long time i always the had a same dream since childhood . i looked at time and I tried to look at the calendar but ignored it and said the same thing again " what's the point of looking at date and day , when I know everything is going to be the same like always ." I felt like I was just living a life with no motive . I don't know what the value of living is . I don't want to die too?Because I already felt like I died long ago just living aimlessly in a dead body . What's alive anyway ? And what is death? Aren't they the same thing with opposite meanings? And have the same cycle . We are born, we live , we get old, we die .
I don't even know why I haven't thrown the calendar . When I don't want to use it . It's like I am waiting just one day , to use this calendar and say wow it's today .
"Anyway, why do I always think the same thing in the morning? It's just a calendar isn't it ? ."
And like always I got ready and went to school by wearing the uniform. Well , I am in my last year of highschool . I went to school and saw the same faces of people again . Everyone was chatting with their friends , playing , teasing and all . It's not like i dont have friends , it's just I really don't want one . I am just an average person with average looks and grades , with no motive . I was walking into the hallway and was going towards my classroom . Out of the blue someone bumped into me and my bag fell down .
" Oh sorry , sorry i was just playing with my friends and-"
I didn't look at her face and bent down to collect my books and bag .
All I said was "playing in the hallway?"
" Ohh sorry , i was just having fun.umm let me help you" she said
She started to help me , all i did was to not look at her face and minding my business . Her fingers touched mine accidentally .A weird feeling runs in my heart but I just mind my own business and took my bag and started to move and she said .
" Oi , look at me ? Why are you avoiding me? Am I looking weird to you? "
I turned around and looked at her . She was wearing a mask , her hair was long and beautiful in black and her eyes were beautiful . Looking at her beautiful eyes with long beautiful eyelashes . First time I got to know what beauty is . Maybe beauty is in her eyes . All I could see was her warm eyes that were charming . I have never seen someone this beautiful and peaceful . I was feeling foolish saying that . Because she was wearing a mask, who knows what she actually looked like.
It was that moment when I first met her in the spring of march and I was unaware of the fact that beauty will make my life beautiful and everything was going to change .
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THE STARTER
I woke up , in the room given to me ! Not knowing what happened in the battle . All I heard was Florence , Milessa , Stacy and raven talking . My eyesight was still blurred and my head was heavy . I moved my eyes right to left . And in the dark blurry shades I saw Sakura standing at a corner . I blinked my eyes to get rid of this little bit blurriness and noticed Maybe she wasn't there . " So MR, finally you wake up after sleeping for 3 days straight? Stacy said who was standing at the right side of the bed with a raven.Three days ? What actually happened. I tried to look back into my memories and all I remember some kind of wild anger going in me with complete darkness around me . " Oh damn you sleep alot like a slot ! " said Melissa, who was standing leaning against the wall but something was odd in the attire she wore .I scanned her from head to toe . " Hey stop staring jerk” suddenly she gets all flushed “ dammam!! Florence who the hell told you to pull me up here thi
POWER AWAKEN :arc end
I felt on the ground , my body didn't stand anymore . My whole body was badly injured all over . I know I can't beat him but this truth hurts , this reality hurts or being not enough hurts more . I looked at the sky , ,somehow it looked peaceful. A beautiful blue sky with warm sun . I want to close my eyes and feel this peace . I really have no idea this pain can be this peaceful . My eyes were about to shut and might never open up again . Everything around me was turning dark . And I felt like I wanted to cry . It's not like I am afraid of the dark . Haha damm why should I be ? Darkness is the only place where I live .All the glitches of my past run like a film in front of my eyes . A whole film . I can hear the whole crowd cheering and applauding jean loudly . Ofc he is the winner and i-someone shouted " Win for me ~" It's … My eyes opened wide and went directly towards Sakura . Where she was standing . She again screamed with her lungs out " win for me ~~" " Sak- sakura"
THE LAESKA
A bad feeling was going in my heart . I can feel heavy dark vibes . I know something was coming for sure . I didn't expect that much . I sure was scared . Who won't be . Telling myself fearless and showing that I am not nervous is all just a reflection of the mirror. Even the greatest people are nervous and I am just a normal ordinary person who is here to save a girl .The magical light disappear fromJean that surrounds him like a ball. For a moment the whole crowd had their breath ups . I saw something coming out from jean . A lion kind of figure came out . A wide, big lion the same as Jean height. Appear .A yellow light was emitting from the lion's paws . The whole lion was covered with Armor and his one eye has a scar . It does look scary and dangerous. I felt a sudden shake in my body ! . Seriously, I didn't expect this."Lion-??" I asked . " Laeska" he said .Laeska .. ?? What's that?A window popped up in front of me—----------------------------++++-----------Name :- la
A nice weather ?
The whole ground starts to lift up words . I hardly balanced myself . I Looked at Jean and there was some kind of different expression on his face . What is he actually planning? I was sure something was going to happen . I hold my sword more tightly. I can feel there is something inside me . Something heavy , powerful . But will I be able to use this power ? . I feel like doubting myself . I know it may be a waste trying but something inside me keeps me hanging on . 'Believe' I heard someone say inside me . What's ? believe . ' Believe in yourself' .. I can feel These words directly cam
THE LIONS OF KINGDOM
And the match began .Before the whole crowd could do countdown and the match could begin.he disappeared within a blink of an eye .I looked in all four directions .Where did he go? In the middle of the match ? .A voice went behind my hair and someone grabbed my neck from behind ." Looking for me ? Chickhead '' he whispered in my ears slowly .He tried to hold my neck forcefully And his nails started to grow and as they grew his nails were trying to cut off my skin . He lifted me forcefully from my neck . It was obvious he wanted to break my neck .Damm! He is so str
THE FIGHT BEGIN
No I can't do this , it's the end. I want to scream aloud . I was crying all over . My hands were shaking . I was laying down on ground in the middle of the battlearena while he was on top of me with his sword . That was pointing directly to my neck and willing to kill me any moment and unfortunately I can't escape . Few hours earlier . It was morning and I got ready . I wore the clothes that were placed on my bed and the chit was placed on the table. I looked at the chit . Good luck ! was written on chit . And yeah! Today was the day I had to fight with Jean and maintain my place. But thinking about fighting with a grimo